As several of you pointed out on my last post, if your choice really was between being bald forever, or having a beard you could never shave off, bald would seem the no-brainer. Bald can be hidden under a wig, or maybe a jaunty scarf. Beard is tougher for a woman to pull off. Unless you’re […]


It is the weekend before Christmas and I have no time to write today,  just as you have no time to read anything I have to say. I haven’t written anything for four days because I don’t have anything uplifting to say. And it is YOUR Christmas, too, after all. So please be warned. Abandon […]


On Thanksgiving last year my mother was dying. We didn’t know it, but as we sat there scarfing down turkey and gravy she had exactly 29 days left to live. It was a terrible time. I’m thinking about her a lot these days as we approach the first anniversary of her death. She loved Thanksgiving […]


This story starts out very, very sad. The day my son ran away to San Francisco found me sobbing on my bathroom floor. Anyone who has suffered from depression knows that the commercial is right: Depression Hurts. It hurts you, it hurts the people you love. It hurts a lot. Here I was. I did not […]


I can pinpoint the exact moment I turned the corner.  I wrote about it on April 25, 2009, right here. Funny thing is that April 25th is my anniversary and I didn’t mention that in the post at all.  I feel terrible about that now. Really terrible. (I’m so sorry, honey.)  Truth is, I’m not […]


Today is a rainy, dreary day and I’m afraid that the weather perfectly mirrors my mood.  I’m on call at work sitting around with nothing to do, finding myself still sleepy from the time change, and pondering where shall my life shall go from here.  Idle, tired, and ruminating on a dark and dreary day is always an omnious combination […]


My mom is dying. She was suddenly diagnosed with Stage 4 Metastatic Colon Cancer in September and it has been a steady downward slide toward death ever since. I don’t know how much longer she has. Days. Weeks. Maybe even a few more months. But she is dying and soon. This disease is a continuation […]


UPDATE: I’ve been going back through old posts cleaning them up and editing old Blogger formatting, reformating pictures, etc. I found this post and when I read it I realized that I wrote it when I was crazy from PTSD. I retitled it to reflect what it really is about. My daughter teased me recently […]


Twilight. Edward. Bella. no excuse whatsoever. none needed


My mom suffered two compression fractures on the day she arrived in San Diego in early December. Today she went in and had a khyphoplasti of her T11 and T12vertebrae and is staying with us for the night. She’s in good spirits and has great mobility. Modern medicine can be an amazing thing. Hopefully, she […]